CREATIVE CONFIDENCE- STEP INTO THE OCEAN OF MY MIND

It is often hard to express the internal workings of a mind but the language of my expression seems to be heard by those I share it with. What a gift it is to be able to put into words the beauty of your own mind, I hope my freedom in expression invites you to dive into yourself and trust your voice even more.

BUT HOW DO YOU FEEL SO CONFIDENT TO SHARE?

Since I could remember my own stream of consciousness my thoughts always held deep contemplation and confidence at balance. Confidence? I think we are all born with it. I think our authenticity born within our souls find ease and clarity to express as is and as shapes, it is the world around us and the people who feel they cannot express themselves that limit our expression and our willingness to be open and expressing in retaliation to that is an act of defiant love for you and for those still trapped in the boarders of their own mind and limits set not by themselves.

At 12 was the first time I heard the sentence "You cry alot..." I had never seen my expression of emotions as a different or an issue. This moment held deep trajectory to journey of who I am today. My emotions were always big, heartfelt, loving and usually not understood. My upbringing and what I was exposed to created deep emotional reflection and awareness BUT aside from the world my soul never stopped sharing, even when the receiving was not welcomed or the receiver was deemed 'unworthy'. Only as I aged did I begin to hide my heart, not in fear but in protection- the depth of love my heart and thoughts held were a gift I had to learn to treasure that not all deserved BUT ART- Art always felt FREE, IDENTITY STRIPPED, EGO DYING, HEALING AND SOMETHING INEVITABLY MADE TO BE RELEASED.

TO ALLOW YOURSELF TO BE UNDERSTOOD AND UNDOUBTEDLY NEVER TRUELY UNDERSTOOD IS THE BIGGEST BOLDEST ACTION OF CONFIDENCE AND TRUST YOU CAN GIFT YOURSELF.

If you are struggling, and the inner connection of self feels lost I ask you to first TAKE THE PRESSURE OFF. The one thing I know is I can always trust myself even though many have told me not to, the mistakes I make all come down to me not truly listening within - even in religion (My relationship with my spiritually, God, Ancestors is very important to me) I believe God gifts you your heart to be guided by- those say do not follow your emotions you will be lead astray but I in fact have found that to follow your heart/soul you cannot be lead astray for the only emotion centred in your soul is LOVE the rest lives in your mind, in different places within your skin. You cannot go wrong moving with love, even in the events of someone you love hurting you, your heart will tell you to love them and let them know you are hurt and to take yourself away from that pain. You must listen first to the voice inside yourself and before you know it it will sound a lot like God. God is placed within us all, prayer is a conversation with self that in turn connects you to the highest form of awareness, to the Universe, to God. However you do it, prayer, journal, chatting to yourself in a moment of reflection on a walk, through Art, through Dance, through Nature, Connection to Country- Whatever it is, the conversations you have with yourself and the vastness of Faith and Soul within you the easier it will be to see yourself and everything around you with clearer vision.

INTROSPECTION IS A MUST.

Back to confidence, I innately saw my confidence as separation to myself and more about the love I see in the world, the love I have IS who I am. If I am connected to what inspires me, drives me, scares me, intrigues me, teaches me and makes me appreciative my existence I will always have something to give for my cup fills from within and will always overflow into the way I express to the reality I live.

My first gift would be to go and write freely, have a conversation on the page with yourself, this will lead to more than you can imagine.

the journey of creation is a never ending, multi-level video game once you see the endless possibility that the gift of life on earth and here after is- you will see you are endless.

I look forward to sharing more of my thoughts, poetry, revelations, processes and conversations with you all,

with love

Zim

I LOVE WHO I WAS

I LOVE WHO I HAVE BECOME

I LOVE WHO I AM BECOMING